Somedays, most days I wish I was a boy.
I wish I had abs, or could wear a suit without being objectified as a lesbian...
Wish I could make girls faint with a wink from my suave and charm...
Wish I could take my shirt off in public to show how fit I could be...
Wish I had a higher Metabolism, so I wouldn't be gross and chubby anymore... I don't like my big tummy though I've learned to hide it well.
I wish that every time I walked down the street I wasn't stared at as if I were a piece of meat for man's use.
Wish they would talk to me, anyone without glancing at my boobs...
Wish guys would hear what I have to say, and treat me like I'm a person and not just a toy...
I wish, I could find more girls interested in girls not just when they're drunk...
...or I wish, I was a boy, a guy, someone who is taken seriously when I'm being serious and not laughed at when I place my opinion...
As much as I like to exploit my boobs for this and that, I wish I could actually be a human to everyone and not just a piece of ass...
There is more to me then boobs, ass and the possibility of a lay. I wish someone would try to get to know me and actually care about who I am and love me for that. I like being a boy sometimes and I have yet to find someone who can understand that. As creepy as this might be. I live in Portland OR you would think they would be easy to find, I just wish I could find them.
I need someone to love and I need them soon or I might go crazy.
I don't do well on my own.
Three days without sleep trying to work out what is so wrong with me that I repel people I have a chance at romance with, my type and someone that is my type that could love me as a girl and a boy. Cause that's who I am... Is there no one?
Some times I wonder if that person even exists. I hope so, I don't want to be without love. I miss the feeling.
Love is the most incredible feeling in the world and without it it hurts.
- Mood: Rejected
- Listening to: Classical Sleep music
- Reading: Paradise Lost by John Milton
- Watching: Doctor Who Season 7
- Playing: Pottermore
- Eating: Nothing
- Drinking: Water
i tried to call you a while back.. and text you... and left you a voice message... starting to feel a bit stalker-ish... wanna hang?
Speaking from some experience...my gender has the nasty tendency of being rather awful when given half a chance. Not to say that we all are, but even the best seem to have it within us to be downright repulsive if we let our guard down. I'm not sure why...testosterone might just be a helluva drug.
But, maybe that's part of the package. I'm not sure.
It doesn't have to be part of it. I mean, if I were a guy I would be the cliche nice guy, but of course with a flare. I would be sweet, caring, loving, and kind. Try to be handsome, and at least appealing in physical ways. I don't really care about penis size. Big really isn't better. Guys don't really get that, if it's too big it really hurts.
I love you soultwin and you know I will treat you how ever you want boy or girl