Somedays, most days I wish I was a boy.
I wish I had abs, or could wear a suit without being objectified as a lesbian...
Wish I could make girls faint with a wink from my suave and charm...
Wish I could take my shirt off in public to show how fit I could be...
Wish I had a higher Metabolism, so I wouldn't be gross and chubby anymore... I don't like my big tummy though I've learned to hide it well.
I wish that every time I walked down the street I wasn't stared at as if I were a piece of meat for man's use.
Wish they would talk to me, anyone without glancing at my boobs...
Wish guys would hear what I have to say, and treat me like I'm a person and not just a toy...
I wish, I could find more girls interested in girls not just when they're drunk...
...or I wish, I was a boy, a guy, someone who is taken seriously when I'm being serious and not laughed at when I place my opinion...
As much as I like to exploit my boobs for this and that, I wish I could actually be a human to everyone and not just a piece of ass...
There is more to me then boobs, ass and the possibility of a lay. I wish someone would try to get to know me and actually care about who I am and love me for that. I like being a boy sometimes and I have yet to find someone who can understand that. As creepy as this might be. I live in Portland OR you would think they would be easy to find, I just wish I could find them.
I need someone to love and I need them soon or I might go crazy.
I don't do well on my own.
Three days without sleep trying to work out what is so wrong with me that I repel people I have a chance at romance with, my type and someone that is my type that could love me as a girl and a boy. Cause that's who I am... Is there no one?
Some times I wonder if that person even exists. I hope so, I don't want to be without love. I miss the feeling.
Love is the most incredible feeling in the world and without it it hurts.
Listening to: Classical Sleep music
Reading: Paradise Lost by John Milton
Watching: Doctor Who Season 7