Firewhisky-Black

Somedays, most days I wish I was a boy.

I wish I had abs, or could wear a suit without being objectified as a lesbian...

Wish I could make girls faint with a wink from my suave and charm...

Wish I could take my shirt off in public to show how fit I could be...

Wish I had a higher Metabolism, so I wouldn't be gross and chubby anymore... I don't like my big tummy though I've learned to hide it well.

I wish that every time I walked down the street I wasn't stared at as if I were a piece of meat for man's use.

Wish they would talk to me, anyone without glancing at my boobs...

Wish guys would hear what I have to say, and treat me like I'm a person and not just a toy...

I wish, I could find more girls interested in girls not just when they're drunk...

...or I wish, I was a boy, a guy, someone who is taken seriously when I'm being serious and not laughed at when I place my opinion...

As much as I like to exploit my boobs for this and that, I wish I could actually be a human to everyone and not just a piece of ass...

There is more to me then boobs, ass and the possibility of a lay. I wish someone would try to get to know me and actually care about who I am and love me for that. I like being a boy sometimes and I have yet to find someone who can understand that. As creepy as this might be. I live in Portland OR you would think they would be easy to find, I just wish I could find them.

I need someone to love and I need them soon or I might go crazy.

I don't do well on my own.

Three days without sleep trying to work out what is so wrong with me that I repel people I have a chance at romance with, my type and someone that is my type that could love me as a girl and a boy. Cause that's who I am... Is there no one?

Some times I wonder if that person even exists. I hope so, I don't want to be without love. I miss the feeling.

Love is the most incredible feeling in the world and without it it hurts.

My emptiness, Regret.

Cold as ice, sadness fills me, darkness surrounds me.

The light, my angel.

In my desperation and lost mind, I have frightened her into silences. Followed by pain and depression as the world seems to collapse around me.
Without my light I am nothing, forever gone. I search and search though she has yet to be found and all the while I slowly slip into sorrow, a horror of an ache, a hole in my heart. My whole heart a miss and useless without the missing piece.

I hope she forgives my ignorance, I hope she forgives me and takes away my shame for my life grows dark without my light in my arms.

Please light save me, before my mind, heart and soul are overwhelmed and consumed by despair.

I have failed you and if you are late in my rescue, if you decide to come. Know that I will be forever sorry for what I have done.

I love you.

Well, an old one… but new to share…

I. Love. Musicals. There I said it.

I just watched Burlesque for the first time and I haven't stopped listening to the music and of course singing along…

alone…

in a cold house…

with my dog giving me the most annoyed, sleepy look ever, as he wakes up every time I hit a high note.

P.S. Don't worry, my inhaler is on standby. XD

USE THEM PIPES GIRL!! BAM!!