Since I dunno when...

So there is a lot of shit I don't like about this picture... but let's start with the basic explanation.

This is at my sister's soccer game. She's a Senior at Concordia University in Portland, majoring in World History and Library Sciences. So since she's a Senior this is one of her last games. She was a Varsity Soccer girl as a Freshman in High School and in College. As you can probably guess, I am super jealous about this fact. Anyway... So... the annoying shit I don't like about this picture.

Well, for starters from Left to Right, Dad, Indigo(Sister), Mom and Me.

I'm pretty sure this is the closest my parents have been physically in about 15 years, and the only full family photo in 20 years. *sigh* It's a long story... Anyway, this picture makes me think I'm adopted...

I am 5' 4.5''... My dad is 6' 3''... So that makes my sister about 5' 7'' and my mom 5' 6''...

I'm pasty white and the rest of them are tan... not to mention I'm pretty sure I weight more then my dad. *sigh*

I honestly want to look at this picture and feel happy, but all I feel is sick. All I can think is if my parents were that close in any other situation I would have a panic attack, and my sister would just leave. You can tell my dad is all fucking tense and it's just cause my mom is there.

I feel horrible that my sister has to be in the middle of this one. Ugh, I can't imagine the stress she's dealing with. She's the kind of person that keeps everything in so, everything from the time she was about 5 years old until now and probably until she's 30... She's gonna explode and it's gonna hurt. Big time.

As for me I've been exploding every fucking day of my life and well, I'm a giant stress ball. I don't know why the hell I'm posting this.

*headache* I'm happy for my sister. Their Team is heading to the National Championships in Alabama. Yes, Alabama, but the NAIA fields are fucking beautiful. Not turf, but real, perfect well kept grass. So jealous. I get to go watch which is gonna be awesome.

I really hope we don't play North West first round, that would be seriously bad luck.

Anyway, there you are, Angst, me bragging about my sister's awesomeness and feeling really awesome that I get to go watch her kick some serious soccer butt! I've taken one of her Penalty Kicks to the stomach, knocked me backwards into the goal and couldn't breathe for a few seconds. Ouch.

Despite all this, I really am excited for my sister, Senior year and not that I want to jinx it, but it would be awesome if they won Nationals this year. It would be the perfect way to end her College years.

GO CONCORDIA!!